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  At his entrance, she gave him a quick glance before taking up a book from the top of the steps. “Is something wrong, Mr. Carsington?” she said. “Has the brewhouse caught fire? Or perhaps you have at last discovered where all those vast hordes of rats you promised us are hiding. Poor Daisy is bored.”

  Darius dragged his gaze away from the lady’s arse and ankles and focused on the dog. Lying near the foot of the steps and busy with some object, she looked up hopefully when her name was uttered.

  He stared at the article between her paws. “Is that—was that—a book she’s eating?” he said.

  “Fordyce’s Sermons,” said Lady Charlotte.

  Darius sucked in air and let it out, then advanced into the room through a narrow path between crates. “That’s not one of mine,” he said. “There are no sermons in my collection.”

  “And why does this fail to surprise me?” she muttered.

  Though his hearing was sharper than most, he feigned otherwise. “I beg your pardon?” he said, drawing closer to the steps.

  “Certainly it isn’t yours,” she said more distinctly. “I should never let Daisy chew one of your books. That would be discourteous. The book is one of mine. But Daisy gets so much more enjoyment out of it, you see.”

  Something clicked in the back of his mind, but the shapely bottom practically under his nose was muddling his thinking processes.

  “Then is it safe to assume you’d consider it discourteous as well to let her piss on any of my books?” he said.

  She made a small, choked sound. Laughter? Or had she merely inhaled dust? He moved a little to one side of the steps, trying for a better view of her face. He detected no sign of amusement.

  “I should never permit that, either,” she said.

  He let his gaze sweep upward again. He could not make her out—but then, his brain was not working very well. He saw how pink her cheeks were. He saw a few wisps of blond hair stuck to her temple. He saw the sheen of perspiration slicking her face and neck.

  It was not unusual for a gentleman to see a highborn woman in a sweat. But most usually he saw her—above him or below him or beside him, as the case may be—in such a state during a lively bout of lovemaking.

  Darius’s temperature climbed, and a jolt of not unfamiliar sensation shot to his groin.

  Don’t waste your time, he told his reproductive organs.

  They weren’t listening. They were fixed on a warm, moist female. His mind wasn’t helping matters. It conjured images of this female, hot and tousled, amid tangled sheets.

  “What are you doing on those steps?” he said irritably. “There seem to be a thousand servants in the house. Aren’t you supposed to be sitting in a chair, sipping lemonade and ordering them about?”

  “I did supervise them,” she said. “The London servants merely swiped the room with a duster and called it cleaning. I had our lot do it thoroughly while I sorted your books. But cleaning is one thing and putting away books is another. The servants cannot all read very well, some very little. It was simpler to do it myself.” She rubbed her forehead with the back of her hand, leaving a streak of grime there.

  “It is hard work,” he said. “Your face is red, and you are sweating.”

  “Gentlemen do not notice such things,” she said.

  “Where did you get that mad idea?” he said. “That is precisely the sort of thing men notice.”

  “I said gentlemen,” she said.

  “Gentlemen are men, too,” he said. “But I believe you meant that I should have pretended not to notice. One of those absurd social rules.”

  “And you do not believe in rules,” she said.

  “No more than you do,” he said. “I know it is against the rules for a lady to perform any sort of manual labor. Yet you are putting away all these books by yourself.”

  “I wanted it done properly.” She came down the steps. She held a volume of Homer’s Iliad. He wondered if she knew what it was.

  He doubted she’d been taught Greek. Except in rare cases—such as his sister-in-law Daphne’s—the classical languages tended not to be included in a lady’s education. In his experience, the higher a lady stood upon the social ladder, the less erudition—or even intelligence—mattered. There was an easy way to find out.

  “Where is the right place to file the erotic Greek poetry, I wonder?” he said.

  She glanced down at the book, and her reaction told him she could no more read Greek than he could read ancient Egyptian hieroglyphs: Her flushed face deepened from pink to rose. So did her neck.

  She wore a high-necked dress with a great many ruffles about the upper part. However, she’d undone several fastenings in front, leaving a narrow line of her throat and an area below plainly visible. The bodice material, once crisply starched, hung limply. She pulled this droopy cloth away from her skin and fanned herself with the damp fabric. The action revealed the swell of her bosom, and the fine line of sweat trickling between her breasts.

  “Under F,” she said.

  “F,” he said blankly. At the moment he could think of only one topic belonging under that letter.

  He was aware of a musky fragrance, not at all unpleasing. Quite the contrary. It was precisely the sort of thing that, in the animal kingdom, drove male dogs to burrow under fences and bound over tall walls: the scent of a heated female.

  He pulled out his handkerchief. “Perhaps you’d like to wipe off the—er—not-sweat,” he said.

  “Thank you.” She took the handkerchief.

  He turned his gaze to the shelves behind her. He saw something wrong, very wrong, but his brain was too sluggish to name it.

  He tried desperately to concentrate. “F,” he said. “Greek begins with a G. Poetry with a P. Erotica with an E.”

  She dabbed her forehead with his handkerchief. “F for foreign,” she said.

  “F for foreign,” he repeated.

  She nodded.

  He looked about him. He blinked once, then stalked to one of the shelves and stared at the books.

  “You’ve put them in alphabetical order,” he said hollowly.

  “Yes,” she said cheerfully.

  “By title,” he said.

  “Yes, except for the foreign ones. I considered doing the others by author, but I thought you’d remember titles more easily.”

  He turned to look at her. Apparently thinking him otherwise occupied, she had pulled the bodice open and was mopping the space between her breasts with his handkerchief.

  I have to kill her, he thought.

  This was beyond anything. This was diabolical.

  He set his jaw and focused on the shelves.

  “There are a great many books under T,” he said levelly. “The Elements of Law, Natural and Political. The Practical Husbandman and Planter. The Sceptical Chymist.”

  “Yes, it is amazing how many there are,” she said brightly. “But you will find a prodigious number under A, as well.” She moved away to a set of bookshelves and read: “A General System of Nature. An Enquiry Concerning the Principles of Morals. A Treatise on Ruptures.” She waved at another set of shelves. “There are a fair number of O’s, too. On this or that. Observations of something or other.”

  “And F for foreign,” he said.

  “Yes.” She beamed at him.

  “Lady Charlotte,” he said.

  “Pray do not thank me,” she said. “It was my pleasure, I assure you.” She gave him back the handkerchief, set the volume of Homer on top of a crooked stack of books nearby, and left him.

  He watched her go, hips swaying, dress clinging.

  When her footsteps had faded, he looked about him. Open crates, some empty, some partially filled, crowded the room. A few of the empty crates stood upside down. On top of them teetered towers of books. In the A, F, and T sections, books crammed the shelves. Elsewhere, they held only a volume or two.

  “Her pleasure, indeed,” he said.

  He looked down at Daisy, who had remained. At the sound of his voice, sh
e looked up from her chewing.

  She was not pretty. Bulldogs were not bred for looks but for ferocity and fearlessness. One of the bulls or bears she was bred to bait must have sat on the face of one of her ancestors. Bowed legs projected from her barrel-shaped—and overweight—torso and crooked teeth from her drooly mouth. On the other hand, her brown and white coat was sleek and clean, and her temper was sweet—perhaps because she was small, even for a young female. The runt of the litter, he guessed.

  Yet runt or not, young or not, she must be fast as well as fierce to catch rats. Despite appearances—the mashed-in face and the crooked teeth protruding from her drooly mouth—she was intelligent.

  Sweet and well behaved. More intelligent than she appeared. Yet dangerous.

  Like the lady who’d departed a moment ago.

  “F for foreign,” he said.

  Daisy gave a little grunt—and returned to her chewing.

  Darius looked at the damp, crumpled square of linen in his hand. “Plague take her,” he said. He brought the handkerchief to his face and drank in the scent of hot female.

  Blindly hurrying down the hall, Charlotte nearly collided with her stepmother.

  Though what Charlotte wanted to do was run out of the house and all the way home, she stopped and made herself very, very calm.

  Lizzie’s gaze went from the top of the dirty cap to the dusty toes of her shoes. “I am afraid to ask,” she said.

  “I was putting away Mr. Carsington’s books,” Charlotte said.

  “By yourself?”

  Charlotte nodded. “The servants had more important things to do.” The truth was, she couldn’t resist the temptation to examine his belongings. A man’s books told a great deal about the man, Papa said. That applied only to the men who actually read the books they owned. Some merely bought them by the cartload to fill their libraries, in order to impress visitors. She knew Mr. Carsington wasn’t that kind of man. He was not in the least unsure of himself, he was not a parvenu trying to climb the social ladder, and he did not seem to care what impression he made on others.

  She had hoped his books would offer clues about him. Usually, she had no trouble assessing a man and determining the quickest way to direct his interest elsewhere without appearing to do so. She was having a great deal of difficulty with him.

  This, she supposed, was because he’d caught her unawares at the very beginning. Unprepared, she’d reacted unthinkingly. Ever since then, she couldn’t seem to find the correct way to deal with him.

  “Since he is a scholar,” she told her stepmother, “I supposed he’d care a good deal more about having access to his books than about the state of the chair covers.”

  “I saw the crates,” said Lizzie. “He owns a great many books. No wonder you’re so rumpled and hot.”

  Charlotte was a strong girl, a countrywoman, as her stepmother understood. She walked a great deal more than other ladies of her social position did. Even on a sultry day like this, several hours of climbing up and down a short set of steps and putting away books, while warm work, hardly over-taxed her.

  It most certainly didn’t do to her what Mr. Carsington did when he burst through the library door. He was hatless, his gold-streaked hair windblown. He was breathing hard, his big chest rising and falling.

  Then she started breathing hard.

  Then her temperature shot up, and she began to sweat as though she’d been breaking rocks under the midday sun.

  She would like to believe she was flustered because he’d caught her misbehaving. But she’d had fun misbehaving, and being caught merely meant she needed to use her wits, which was even more fun.

  As to her playing the innocent idiot—why should her conscience take notice? Falsehoods and make believe were central to a lady’s repertoire. Pretend to be in complete control. Pretend not to notice an insult or a faux pas. Pretend not to be hurt. Pretend to be amused. Pretend to be interested. Pretend to care. Pretend not to care.

  “Ye gods,” she said under her breath. “When am I not pretending?”

  “Charlotte?”

  “Ye gods, I do need a bath,” Charlotte said more audibly, tugging at the half-undone bodice. All of her clothes stuck to her. She wished she were a boy, and could tear them all off and leap into the nearest lake.

  Mr. Carsington must have done that when he was a boy.

  Very likely he still did it.

  She could picture it: the broad shoulders and narrow hips and long, muscled legs…

  Don’t, she told herself.

  Too late.

  A wave of aching loneliness washed through her, and in its wake came longing. She saw his face as he took in her joke. How she’d wanted to laugh! She’d wanted to put out her tongue at him. She’d wanted him to pull her off the ladder and into his arms.

  Feelings, too many…old, wicked feelings she thought she’d killed and buried long ago.

  She had to get away—from him, from this house. She tried not to look impatient.

  “I’ll be ready to leave in a minute,” said Lizzie.

  “I’ll wait for you at the dog cart.” Charlotte started down the hall.

  “But Daisy is not with you,” Lizzie said. “Where is she?”

  Only then did Charlotte realize the dog had not followed her. “She must be in the library.” She kept walking.

  “Alone?” Lizzie’s voice rose. “With valuable books?”

  “Oh, no, Mr. Carsington is with her.”

  “He is here, in the house? Charlotte, will you stop? You will oblige me to shout.”

  Charlotte did not look back. “Don’t worry,” she called. “He won’t leave Daisy alone with his books.”

  She recalled what he’d said…about her letting the dog relieve herself on his books. Only he hadn’t used a euphemism, and she’d very nearly giggled, as she used to do when she heard her boy cousins use naughty words.

  Oh, he was wicked…and so was she.

  The look on his face when he comprehended her joke. She covered her mouth and hurried on to the dogcart.

  Then, when none but Belinda the mare could hear her, Lady Charlotte did laugh…and cry a little, too.

  Twenty minutes later

  Between the trees, Charlotte caught glimpses as she drove of Beechwood’s lake, its waters glistening in the sunlight.

  In one secluded corner of Lithby Park’s lake was a dock from which visiting boy cousins and, lately, the two older of her little brothers would leap naked into the water, as girls were not allowed to do.

  She saw in her mind’s eye Mr. Carsington, naked, running down the dock and jumping into the water, the way her cousins and brothers did, and laughing the way they did.

  “Charlotte, you had better let me drive,” said Lizzie. “You are not paying atten—Look out!”

  Two hours later

  After fuming for a time, Darius put Goodbody in charge of restoring order to the library. With a superfluity of servants about, the valet would have all put to rights in no time. It would give the housemaids something to do, now that Lady Lithby wasn’t here to keep them busy.

  Darius knew there was a pecking order among servants. Certain maids were trusted with certain areas of the house and certain tasks. Furthermore, even the most high-ranking maids were not allowed to wield so much as a feather duster in areas reserved to certain menservants. But sorting out precedence was best left to Goodbody, who understood and cared about such things.

  Darius might have cared more had any of the maids been pretty. Since they weren’t, he left the valet in charge and went to the stable, where he had only one groom, Joel Rogers, to deal with.

  Darius had promised to evaluate the paving today, and decide whether to repair or replace it, along with the antiquated drainage system.

  As he neared the stable, the groom hurried out. “You heard, then, sir?” said Rogers. “I saddled the mare, thinking you’d want her.”

  “Heard what?” Darius said. The back of his neck prickled.

  “About the ac
cident, sir. Along your road.”

  The world blurred and chilled for a moment, as though a cold fog had swept in. “What accident?” Darius said levelly.

  “Lady Charlotte, sir, and Lady Lithby,” said the groom. “I heard they caught in a rut and broke a wheel.”

  In his mind’s eye, Darius saw Lady Charlotte’s mangled body carried home on a ladder. To block out the nightmare image, he asked questions. The groom had little additional information. He’d heard the news from the blacksmith, who’d recognized the damaged vehicle when he passed it on his way here.

  Within minutes, Darius was upon his horse.

  It did not take long to find the place, though, thanks to the ruts, he had to make his way slowly. He found the dog cart on its side at the edge of the road. The wheel was badly broken, and one of the shafts was damaged.

  Then he saw spots of blood. Logic told him this didn’t necessarily bode calamity. Logic pointed out that if anything truly disastrous had happened, the news would have flown through the neighborhood. Since it was his road, people would have been pounding on the door to tell him, Logic said.

  Logic might as well have spoken to the nearest tree.

  Darius made for Lithby Hall with as much speed as the crater-filled road would allow.

  The house appeared normal enough when he arrived. No weeping or wailing issued from any of the open windows. The outdoor servants had not gathered nearby, as they would during a catastrophe, to await news.

  He looked toward the first-floor windows. He remembered Lady Charlotte dabbing at her damp breasts with his handkerchief. He recalled the potent woman-scent he’d inhaled.

  He imagined the drawn curtains at one west-facing window abruptly pulled open, revealing the lady risen from her bath and as naked as the Botticelli Venus, her fair hair streaming over her shoulders, the late-afternoon sun gilding her silken skin.

  Are you insane? he asked himself. You’d better hope no worse has happened than her needing a bath. You’d better hope that body is in one piece.

  As he reached the stables, he heard shouting.

  Not a good sign.